It's been a while. I've been contemplating how to write this entry, and i've finally decided just to write it simply, and if anyone is bugged out by it, let me know, though i doubt i'll mind.

First off, i need a job. I'm applying everywhere, so i'm bound to get something. i'm also being allowed to cheat the system a bit, but i'm not gunna go into that.

I need a car. My mom doesn't have her own car right now because the transmission died on hers. She's gunna get a van, i'm gunna learn to drive in it, and i'm gunna get my damned license. Finally. (loser.)

I need to get out more. But, since i'm the like, only one in my circles of friends without a job, it's kinda lame. Don't get to hang out much, so i live in my friggin' computer and flop on my bed and watch Disney Channel. (loser.)

Now to let out what's been bothering me these past few months. Some of you already heard all this, but that's ok.

I'm scared to go to college. I bet my college-going friends know what i'm talkin' about. I don't know what to do, but i know what i want to do. I'm gunna go into the field of video game development. I'm looking at schools, but that's not the point. We're about to get cut loose, and that scares me. I often find myself asking "What's next?" I think i'll be asking that question alot after college also.

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All the rest of you folks: I'm off, i kinda feel like an ass for spilling all that and making myself look like a pansy for being honest, but i can write better then i can speak. I would've told Cindy in person if i had the chance today.

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